A Course In Miracles Lesson 5... Why Does My Head Hurt?

Ok, so yesterday my head started to hurt because i was having a hard time wrapping my thoughts (haha... if you don't get it, never mind) around how my thoughts don't mean anything. I grasped the concept but i was still like "i'll do the exercises but how can one's thoughts not mean anything?" Today my head was hurting for a completely different reason. 

Today's lesson dealt with telling ourselves that we are never upset for the reason that we think. What got my confused for what felt like a good 10-15 minutes was paragraph two:

"When using the idea for today for a specific perceived cause of an upset in any form, use both the name of the form in which you see the upset, and the cause which you ascribe it to."

And the examples it gave was:

"I am not angry at ____ for the reason i think.

I am not afraid of ____ for the reason i think."

What confused the hell out of me was what it meant by "the name of the form in which you see the upset" and "the cause which you ascribe it." After leaving it alone for a few moments it hit me! In the examples angry and afraid are "the name of the form in which you see the upset" and the ___ is the cause.

So if you look at my examples in my notes at the first one... "pissed" would be "the name of the form in which you see the upset" (pissed is the kind/form of upset that i perceive) and "my boss" is "the cause which you ascribe it." (i am perceive myself to be pissed because of my boss). I also underlined the form and cause in my other examples in my notes in case you are like me and have a hard time wrapping your head around the wording in the lesson like i did. 

And in not so headache inducing news...

I am currently working through Goddess Leonie's "Creating My Goddess Year Workbook & Planner." 

(And please, don't get snippity with me about her use of the term Goddess. I can't speak for her but i view it as a term for to empower other women so just let it be at that). 

It is so super colorful and fun and resonates with me on so many planes. (Also if you get the chance... listen to her soul sister sessions on her podcast... her laughter and personality are infectious). It's actually a 100+ page pdf file and not an actual book book. What im doing is printing the pages out (20 a day till i get all of them... don't want to kill my printer just yet), cutting each page individually with squiggles around it (why, because its fun and i can), and then pasting it into a sketch book. That way it gives the guidebook more heft and last power and i can draw all around it, write outside the lines, and journal along with the workbook... (And i have to give credit where credit is due... i got the idea for this from amandapearl2 on youtube).

And "ssshhhh" don't tell them, but when i was on the ACIM study group call (want in? join HerFuture and click to join the ACIM power posse and all the details are in there) last night, when they were reading i was following along in the book and cutting out my pages at the same time (but i was on mute so they never knew... hehe).