Are We Getting Closer Or Are We Just Getting More Lost - A Course In Miracles Lessons 21 & 22

Sorry for my absence yesterday but i was enjoying spending some time with my mom. We did brunch, hung out and she got me lots of tasty goodness from the grocery store and from my favorite little organic market. But now that i am here lets move on to the lessons now shall we?

i like how with lesson 21 it was "i am determined..." Meaning, us wanting to see this life/world/everything differently is something that we are adamantly working on. We are not expected to know or to see things differently yet, we just have to be willingly working on it.

Hehe, and as for my little side notes on the bottom. I keep hearing and reading in various places that it takes 21 days to make something a habit. And since lesson 21 was 21 days in a row of me doing these lessons i wanted to celebrate a little in my notes. As for the "Clean" comment... I keep coming across the program (twitter, groups/people i know through her future) and it keeps kind of calling to me (if that makes any sense). The more that i read about the more i want to do it. (The program in the book, not the program that comes with the kit they sell on their site). And this time around (unlike in the past when i had major issues with food) i actually want to do it for all the right reasons (and i love how while they give you recipes and what not its not very portion sized controlling... i need that little bit of release). I think im going to order the book when i order my last textbook tomorrow...

Lesson 22 made me happy and kind of sad all at the same time. It made me really happy because it gives me that glimmer of hope that the life that im living now is not it. That the world im "seeing" is just a projection of my attack minded thoughts. Now, actually truly believing this is a completely different story and i am far from it. But i like the fact that it can at least (for now) make me feel hopeful.

The reasons it makes me sad? It's what i have bubbled in the middle (and is italics in my book). I know the course is trying to teach me that to truly be happy i need to understand that all of this around me isn't real. As much as i think my life sucks at times not all of it is bad and its hard to fathom that that the good things aren't real (or that they are somehow a form of vengeance).

And as for the title of this blog post? Well i've had Rise Against's "Swing Life Away" stuck in my head for a very long time and its just been popping into my head a lot recently. I know they are a very political band (part of the reason why i love them) but if you want to stretch it or interpret it differently you can kind of make it ACIM related. (Maybe if i have some free time this week i'll dissect the song and point out what parts i think are applicable to what parts of the course).